I was thinking back to our “before days” today.

The days when we were on the cusp of making this change, where there seemed so much that could go wrong, and the unknown was terrifying.

I was thinking of the 8 years I scourged the MLS site looking for a way out. Thinking of the nights I lay in bed, dreaming, and desperate for an easy option.

I was remembering how frustrated I was that I wasn’t satisfied, how I didn’t ever think I would be satisfied.

And now.

I am.

Not only that, but I am happy.  So happy, people who knew me “before” have actually expressed concern (their concept being that things are apt to go wrong and I should really be prepared???)

I have no idea what next year will look like, but I know now that by facing my biggest fear, by letting go of “stability”, by leaving the past behind, I can manage anything.

I wish we had done it earlier, but I also believe we did it when we were supposed to. I know it isn’t and won’t be perfect, but whatever it is, I own it.

And now, I see people every day who are stalking MLS, twitching at night, making do, and getting too caught up in the unrealistic to be able to spend time on the realistic.

I hope, one day, the leap will happen. That you, (or they) will find a way to move forward, take the next step, even when they don’t know what lies ahead.

Because, trust me, it is pretty awesome on this side of the fence!