I have had a rough go of sharing my thoughts with you this week. I’m stumped.

Blocked. Lost in thought.

Completely lost in thought.

My mind is stuck in the last year, reminiscing, and honestly; how many times can I go over it with you?

I can’t seem to write about daily activities, or ugly food this week. Instead I want to jump up and down on your page and shout at you, and make you understand just what a big deal this past year has been!

A REALLY BIG DEAL!

I look at my family today, and look around me a my life, and I am in awe. I compare it to last year, or the last 5 years, and I beam with achievement.

it isn’t a “look what we have” kind of achievement.

Nothing like that, actually. Completely different.

I used to wish for things. Wish for a holiday, wish for a “big break”, wish for more, or less, or something else entirely. I was never totally as ease. I always felt like I was “making the best of it”

And trust me, “IT” wasn’t bad

but. . . it wasn’t like this.

It is like falling in love. How after you meet the person you love you can’t believe how you lived before them. You can’t imagine life without them.

Such is our life.  We were kidding ourselves before. We were chasing our tales, and putting up with stuff we shouldn’t because we thought we had to.

This is what I know now, this year.

The stuff in your life you are wishing away, you can change it.

I think back to how terrifying it was to move out of Vancouver, away from “opportunity” for us and the kids.

Ya… well. The opportunity of the city is a bit of false advertising, isn’t it.

Opportunity and happiness is within you. Chase your dreams, spend your days amazed by your life. Nothing else matters more.

So, I shout at you today, one more time, and then I will leave it be.

ENOUGH!

It’s time.  If you think there is a better life….. THERE IS.  So stop dicking around and go find it, and make it happen.

And this week, I will get back to cooking, and talking about other things and I will just spend this last day freaking proud of myself for having the balls to leap.

For having the courage to admit that I wasn’t satisfied, or happy. For having the clarity to stop and simplify and clear out all the mess and drama and broken bits.

Today I am proud. Proud of myself, proud of my life and absolutely thrilled that I live in a place, with amazing people around me, that make something fabulous out of nothing at all.